Thursday, September 11, 2008

New Beginings


Well, another week has almost come and gone. The world is still spinning and the sun still sets and rises. Dustin and i have come up with a ton of new goals and plans for the next year. We are training right now for a half Marathon next month and that will kick off our Marathon training. We plan to do our first Marathon in the spring. I am also looking into school. I'm interested in the esthetics's program at Fran Brown. It would take me a year and two months to complete going part time. I'm not 100% sure if I'm going to do it but I'm really putting thought into it. Kaiya is going to school and loving it. The only dislike she has so far is not riding the bus. The van was in Vegas all last school year so the bus was our only option. I enjoy taking her and picking her up but she'd rather be on the bus :) Her teachers are already so impressed with how well she's doing and how much she grew over the summer.
Dustin is working hard, as usual. He works long hours and is usually exhausted by the time he gets home. He loves his job though and the people really enjoy working with him. He is so excited for snow.
As for Dustin and myself, our hearts are still hurting for our loss. Some days we take 2 steps forward and the next day its one step back. We are moving forward, however, and have really learned to appreciate our lives and the people in it everyday. You never know what tomorrow will bring.
Until next time....

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Loss

Not alot changes in our lives so i usually doin't have a lot to write about. I honestly didn't think anyone was reading it anyway.
Last Tuesday we got the news that we lost our baby. We were 14 weeks pregnant. The next few days i think Dust and i were both in shock and torn by disbelief. The pain came Thursday and that made it real for me. I was in a type of "Labor" for two days. It was the worst two days of my life. I "passed" the baby on Friday but spent the rest of the day in the hospital because my bleeding was out of control. I had to deliver the placenta or i could have bled to death. It was so devistating.
We came home and have been healing a little everyday since. That of course is the super short, little detailed version of what happened but i thought i'd make this the least depressing as possible.
We want to thank EVERYONE!! We didn't make dinner one night throughout the week. Someone always brought us something. We had 2 gift baskets delivered full of the most amazing relaxation things. We recieved flowers and even a house plant. The nicest cards and calls. It was so amazing to see how many people were right there to show there support. I've overwhelmed by you all and will never be able to express my appreciation.
Yesterday Dustin and i celebrated our First Anniversary. It was the most amazing day i could ask for. We had coffee at a coffee shop together and watched the rain. We got all dressed up and went out to a nice dinner. We have had some serious heart to heart conversations the last week. Its so crazy how such an awful siutation brought us so so close. I love my husband. He's my best friend and couldn't have survived this last week without him. I'm so blessed.
I am running out of time but just thought i'd give an update.